Spring has sprung and I’ve been reflecting a lot the last few days on my current path, what led me to where I am, and where I am going. I have come to some realizations about why some things have gone the way they have, reasons whose origins I now believe lay within the recesses of my psyche. And the more I ponder my current state the more it occurs to me that the shadow of debt that has loomed over me for far too long is the cause of many of my woes, and of my own doing. Last year I had an inkling of a plan to deal with my debt servitude and I started out good. Unfortunately, not all that long ago, I started to slip. Or more accurately as my great friend the commander pointed out, I fell off the fucking cliff.  I began planning trips I really shouldn’t take just yet, and buying gear I couldn’t really afford to take the aforementioned excursions.  Some things happened this last week that really woke me up. I have now canceled all the trips for the present time until I get everything under control. I’ve accepted the fact I have a spending problem that has led me to accumulate the debt I have. I honestly feel like I’ve entered a pseudo twelve step program with the Commander as my sponsor. I still plan on having day to day adventures and taking rafting trips throughout the upcoming season, but I will also be scrutinizing just about every cent I spend. I have to finally accept financial responsibility to get out of the hole I have dug myself down into, even if it means doing some things I’d rather not… A spring cleaning of my conscious,  finding extra ways to earn money, Stay tuned for progress reports to see what happens next!

     One thing that happened last year that dealt me a devastating below was replacing the motor in my truck. A motor that now has to be replaced again after only 5,000 miles! Turns out the new one had a bad head gasket. And the manufacturer is trying to screw me a bit on the warranty. I may have to pay $300 out of pocket which, as you may imagine, is not helping me. I’ll hopefully have the truck back this week with a motor that will last longer than six months.

     This weeks Soul sucking selfie is courtesy of the loaner car the shop gave me while they work on my truck. It’s a Kia Soul. A small car with a huge glove box. Seriously, it’s so big it has a shelf in it! One friend suggested it’s built that way so you can put your balls in there while you are driving around.

Selfie #12

Until next time my radical readers when life throws those hard truths in your face keep your head up and remember to