This last week I finally began to turn the tide on my rapidly accruing debt. I am still close to the redline but I am definitely decreasing my spending. I am becoming the master of the staycation, using my house as base camp. On the summer solstice I led an awesome trip through the gorge.

 We picked up a guy who we floated down to a rope swing under a bridge. He performed acrobatics on the rope that led us all to believe he was going to do something truly amazing for the dismount. Instead he just simply dropped. He nicknamed him ‘letdown’. We all had an incredible amount of fun and even Barbequed after. We somehow broke a paddle rolling up the raft but quickly re-purposed it.

Unloading the gear when we got back to home base I discovered my grandmother missing and blood. A lot of it. So much in fact that I believed my grandmother was most likely dead. I just kept staring at the puddle of blood and thinking I may never see her again. How could someone, especially a small frail octogenarian, lose that much blood and still be alive?

  The next eight hours were an emotional roller coaster for me and I thank all my friends who put up with me. I canceled the rafting trip that was supposed to happen the next day. What was supposed to be another day of awesomeness turned into a night of ups and downs filled with anxiety and thoughts of human mortality.

  Thoughts like how we all have a number on the days we live and none of us truly know what that number is, so live your life to the fullest and minimize the amount of shit you have to deal with. Sometimes though, no matter what you do, things do add up and the events of the past month began to weigh down on me and I had a breakdown, on a scale I haven’t had in years.

 I went through the seven stages of grief in a few short hours. I was able to get in contact with the emergency room she had been taken to. She was okay, she got stitches and they were sending her home. It looks like things will be going back to normal, at least for awhile, although it seems some major changes may be happening in the next few months. In the meantime there will definitely be some river therapy involved.

The day after the solstice I took a much needed rest day and saw Edge of Tomorrow. It was actually really good, I recommend checking it out. Other movies I recommend, both streaming on Netflix, are Odd Thomas and Rapture-palooza. You can thank me later.

Until next time my supportive readers remember when you feel life isn't being fair and not going your way,